Dont understand anything anymore

At the point where I am in my life I find so many people that I looked up to or loved let me down ... Everything I was taught from family is not completely true . I just don't know what to believe anymore from anyone or o do t even want to try sometimes .. To me everybody was fake is fake .. I really don't know what to think anymore .... With my eyes closed with trust all I have in the moment is my babies and God ... That's the truth at the end of the day your shadows leaves you right so that also means family, friends and the ones you loved .. God I can't thank you enough for giving me strength for everything I have endured this last couple of years n will continue to ... I love u dearly for it ..... From the bottom of my heart you really know I am grateful.. :-) :-) :-) Even thru the tears I have to smile .....

                          Love me :-) :-) :-) :-)

New year still need work

Since I haven't currently have written I wanted to write about the new year -- I will not write about new year new me because I am still in the process of bettering myself .. Every year people say that but in reality you really don't change from one day to the next it takes time and work .. I have been working on myself for some time and still am not where I want to be in life . I surely have come along way and for the first time someone notices it and said I have done good . Its funny every thing I have gone thru is what has made me well me .. It takes nothing but strength to continue to work hard ... Right now i am in between two path wondering which one to take and if I am ready to take any .... Well just got to keep going right