Hey well I am here in my living room and waiting for the the drier to finish. I might go to my bf house for the weekend. Today I got a phone call from my grandmother and we talked she started to cry about the fact that she feels everyone on this side of the family including my father which is her son has chosen Andres over the family. She thinks that everyone is being mean for w.e the reason . It is kinda sad that my family is not closer together but one person didn't do that the issues are beyond that person. Its always lies and hiding stuff. For a strong family is that even if you don't like it you keep your mouth shut and be there for the person. Also being honest because if you don't love the person from the bottom of the heart like family suppose to there will be no trust and no communication. Its funny because I have these beliefs because that is what I was taught growing up and when I was growing up my family was a bit more closer. Not even my parents talk to each other like they use to . This year I didn't spend new years or thanksgiving with my dad cause he feels like my aunt is being fake and its not the same as it use to be . As much as I agree with him what does that help but at the same time he use to spend those days with his parents and brother and for about 11 years he hasn't and rather anyone like them or how much they talk that is his family to. I don't understand what goes through peoples mind sometimes. The world is a horrible place and if you don't have family good or bad what can you say about that. Example I have not choosen my bf family over mine but they are part of my family now. I had a baby with bf and as much as I am not married he is still my babies father, grandmother, and aunts. So rather my bf and I are together or not they are still family they will always be a part of me . My mom makes it seem that I chose them over her its not even the case. My family now is them and my family in having my son. See when I was little my aunt use to come over and uncle with my cousins I dont even remember when was the last time that happen. They hardly even come to visit the baby but unlike what anybody say when its been awhile i go visit even if i go walking so they can see the baby because family is family rather they don't see it like that anymore. I even ask my mom sometimes o why don't pass by her cousins house or something like that and they always have something to say . When I was little it wasn't allot but I use to go visit. My son is going on 9 month this month and he still havent met his whole family and they live in the same state. How sad is that. So have you ever thought what family means to you . Have you looked around on how things change? Have you ever stopped and ever have a decent conversation with a relative that maybe you havent spoken to . I try but I cant put the effort on my own it takes two.
well love you buh bye
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